30th
Dreams and their Inevitable Disappointments
When I used to think of the challenges my morals would face when pursuing a career in production, I would think of having to work with sleazy sex scenes or gory violent ones. It never dawned on me that my first televised project would be a manipulative infomercial attempting to sell motivational speaking materials. The message this piece attempts to communicate is that by spending $49.95 to buy these books and audio disks, you will learn these simple steps that will make you rich, own a big house, drive a fancy car and have a steamy love life. And all of this is connected with happiness. Buy our product, learn our prescribed steps and you will finally be happy. ”It’s just that simple”.
Sound bytes echo through my subconscious daily, like “Someone please stab me in the eye with a pencil,” and “Bullshit Asshole Fucker Son of a Bitch.”
I fear this project is making me a very angry person.
And the PCs keep crashing (4 times today) and the project directors are two old men with bad taste and bad breath and bad people skills who get in my personal space and smell it up with their breath and patronizing attitude toward TV viewers.
Enter: More sound bytes.
I secretly smile inside at the fact that this infomercial is failing. Sure, it means more work for me, because they keep trying to make it “effective”, but still… I’m proud of people for not buying into this crap. You go, America!
Father God, is this job really necessary to get where I need to go? Do I have to? Why can’t I just be like Mel Gibson and show my ass a few times? There’s no way that’s more degrading.
Anyway, almost not related and directed somewhere else:
I know it means nothing to you, but it’s important to me. You’re being flippant, and I’m sure it’s because you’re totally unaware that what I really handed you is my dream, so whenever you could get around to it… if you ever intend to. In the meantime, I’ll do my best not to begrudge you and think you too extremely arrogant for taking your sweet time when I thought you’d understand. Thanks.
