4th
Why am I upset?
It’s September 4th and we haven’t heard from the bank yet whether or not we are definitely approved for the loan. I am nervous and stressed. I’m scared about the business venture now, not the most confident I’ve ever been. I suddenly feel like I have no idea what I am doing.
My dog is driving me crazy. He’s an energetic puppy who is getting bigger and bigger and not necessarily more mature. What was I thinking? Saying I could watch him because I’d be home. He makes it almost impossible for me to concentrate. I am constantly aware of his presence and the responsibility. I feel guilty for being too busy or preoccupied to give him the attention he wants and I’m afraid he won’t grow up to be a well-adjusted animal. In this moment, I regret that we got him. We should have said no.
3 days ago I got smashed in the face with an oar, by my husband whom I had already asked to stop being obnoxious. Sore nose, busted lip and aching teeth.
Almost 4 years at a church that I do not mesh well with. I am uninspired. I feel as though I digress. I don’t fit in well. I don’t like some of the people, and it bothers me.
